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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 01:40

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I was very sick at this time too.

One cannot live in the past .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

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But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

If my lovely sister sleeps with my boyfriend, what should I do about her?

She found it foreign!.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

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As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I could never make a relationship work though!

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Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Comes on , in middle age.

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

She wouldn,t have been !

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

When have you been in an accident where the other person involved blatantly lied to the police about what transpired?

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

We all went to grammer schools

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But ive been too sick for many years..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

It was going to be , some day.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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She loved him until the end.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Ive learnt so much.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Would this be the day?

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

All the time i was locked up.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And i lived it daily.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But it wasn’t much.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Why did i forgive my father ?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I have no regrets .

Was to survive, this bastard.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I waited trembling.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My family never makes their pension either.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Put me off passion for life!!

(And it was in our own minds.)

My life is so biszare .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

So whats the point in blame.

She married twice! .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I said to her

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

We were not on the streets..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I think the readers, may guess!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

So, i spoilt her more .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I was seconnd youngest,

He resisted the act ,that day.

Who then, do I blame.?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I never cut or harmed myself..

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Im still living with it.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I was scared of men, in general

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

When she asked me how she looked .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But, we were locked up after school.

He knew the spot.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I don,t even have a pension.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I was 9 years of age.

I will be 64.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I couldn’t, believe it.

What did i know ?

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I write beautiful poetry .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

As i do to all so called friends.?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

This is soul school!.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She was in good health!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.